When Spring was On Going

It was mid spring when things began to change. The blossoming flowers did not seem as intriguing, nor did the smell of fresh air. The road was cramped, per usual. As I walked, my steps became even heavier. It was a time of challenge, where I had to battle my inner demon not to get the best part of me. Break up often did that to people. Or maybe it was neither the break up nor the person, but the words said. Ever since that cursed night, I had not been able to sleep properly. I had not been able to think straight. I was always distracted for it was the only thing I was craving. I was simply a mess.

Though, things slowly began to get better. Especially after I saw my own friend: Na Jaemin. We had exchanged words before. I felt like I had known him for years despite the little amount of interaction I had with him. Yes, it only had been some days after my break up. Yes, this may seem like I needed a rebound. Yes, this may corner me. But I cared about nothing. I started to feel at ease when he hugged me for the first time. I started sobbing in his embrace. I let myself loose. He was a safe haven for me. Someone I could be with without putting up a façade. He did not distract me. He made me stop thinking about those bad thoughts. I was simply just… me. And he accepted me with all my extraordinary remarks. I was drawn to his charms. And I would want nothing else more than to be able to know him better because I may be able to fall for him.